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This semester is really kicking my butt this year. Basically it is taking all of my energy to stay floating or rather not drowning. This week I got this cold bug and it is suddenly clear to me how much energy I have been using to keep up with everything. As in now that I am tired and sick I don’t know how I have been doing this craziness for half a semester and it is craziness. If anyone is wondering where I have gone and why they “never see me” it is because no one ever sees me. Not even my roommate. I socialize ONLY at breakfast (and lunch on Monday and Wednesday *hearts* Rejon) every other moment is packed with work. Even going at that speed and maintaining a job I still fall behind an average of 3 chapters of textbook reading every week. So Saturday is now devoted to making up what I can’t physically do during the week, but usually I am so beat by Saturday that I am not productive at all and too tired to hang with people at all. I feel really weak physically right now and I know that is the cold working its magic but I can’t rest or I will NEVER BE ABLE TO REST because I will fall so far behind. My classes are really hard too. Not my art classes they are good but Political Science and Art History are bastards and I would have withdrawn from Art history if I could because I could potentially fail the class after the first miserable exam but the teacher would fail me if I withdrew. So I have no choice but to push through. My only hope is that my GPA is pretty good so if worst comes to worst I would have to do REALLY bad to loose hope. I just want to take a nap right now but if I don’t finish my art project before I have to do to work I won’t be able to start on my scary History paper. Funny thing this paper is about that evolution disclaimer in Cobb county’s bio textbooks. (remember those? lol) I have to find these old newspaper articles somehow with the power of the internet.

I was so frustrated in printmaking today that I cleaned my block in a fit or rage and then realized that I still needed it inked and had to ink it again. Who in their right mind cleans in a fit of rage.

I have been starting to fall asleep against my will. I will be trying to do something and then wake up realizing that many hours have passed. Try to work again and fall asleep again. This is starting to happen all the time. I buy coffee to stay awake through classes. Yesterday I didn’t go to work because I was so sick and tired and I wasn’t even able to get anything done.

Just so this isn’t a completely depressing update I learned that I can still speak spanish with a great deal of fluency and have no problem communicating (I will not mention grammar but that was always my weakness… damn verbs) The foreign language community invited me to their meetings which was really sweet if I can manage to go. Also I found those series of drawings by an artist on this acid trip which is fun. I also learned that in crisis I have a surprisingly strong work ethic. I haven’t missed a class and Snelling turned out to be an unexpectedly good job. Didn’t see that one coming.